Alchemical processes
I've tried to put the words onto paper. But I can't seem to. It's up here (hands to head), and in here (and to the heart), and this particular brand of magic cannot seem to exist anywhere else except in the locked vault of my unreliable memory.
I leave in less than a month. It seems both too soon and not soon enough.
Will I ever be normal again?
posted by Slinky @ 4:27:00 PM
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April commented:
It's perfectly normal chickie. I thought I was going mental the 3 weeks before I left for studies in Melbourne. Kept fluctuating between wriggling around in excitement at the prospect of all the new stuff that lay ahead, and breaking down in tears at the thought of leaving everything good and familiar behind...
Take it from someone who's lived through it babe. It gets easier once you're over there. The homesickness passes after a bit... One day, you'll look around and realise just how damn good life is. :) *hugs*
Anyway, I know you'll kick ass once you're there. You're powerful. You're invincible. You're WOMAN! Woooot! ;)- » January 14, 2006 6:57 PM
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commented:
Hey, its totally fine. Went through the same bloody process when I left for the States. You'll be so caught up with student life that homesickness would not have time to gain a foothold.
Its just pre-departure jitters. Kinda like getting married. Try it for a year or two and if it doesn't work out, divorce and come back home... The only thing is that you don't have to keep paying the school every month when you leave...- » January 14, 2006 9:12 PM
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Anthony commented:
Ach. Went through the same thing, except that my blog was essentially my catharsis. I'm not suprised the words wouldn't flow.
Remember, that we're right with you. Always.
P.S Don't look back at the airport.- » January 15, 2006 1:52 AM
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April commented:
Anthony - I did that when I left. Big mistake. I bawled buckets. Dammit... I was doing so good till that point!
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Slinky commented:
Well, i was talking about two separate things in that short little post, but thanks anyway to everyone for the moral support. :)
The impending departure still feels oddly unreal, thus leading to some major procrasination on my part, which I will doubtless regret deeply later on. I think you can all expect major freaking out on this blog any second now as D-day draws closer. But for now it seems like my mind has compartmentalized it in a little locked corner and I'm not stressing too much just yet. Yet.
I think I'll probably be having daily heebie-jeebies, very much like pre-wedding jitters, Topher. (probabl th cloest I'll ever get to that particular sensation :)) Hopefully I won't be headed for divorce though. I want this particular partnership to be forever.
April, I will definitely be homesick. Eespecially for the dog, the Boy, and the foooood. And my amazing support network of friends, of course. Having them being there on MSN just isn't the same. *pulls face*
And Anthony, I'm trying VERY HARD not to think of the airport thing. I just now I will turn into a wailing mess even without looking back. I hate goodbyes, I really do. And the idea of a whole bunch of people there (or worse, a very small bunch of people there) to say goodbye is sure to induce a deluge. And I haaaaaaate crying.- » January 15, 2006 7:30 PM
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commented:
Just keep flying back for your regular fixes (and to see your friends, jawohl?).
Shouldn't be too difficult - heh, those folk are not exactly renowned for their fondness for work, I imagine that school will leave plenty of time for leisure...shamelessly stereotypical I know, but well...- » January 16, 2006 10:24 PM