Dreamers

Anyway, what happened was that as I was walking to the river, I suddenly hear this "hey", AND IT'S BEN. Argh. I had my heart set on a quiet lunch, especially since I'm still completely stoned out from ZoukOut. And he does the pathetic "oh, I thought you had plans? No lah, just wanted to talk" thing, and I DON'T WANT TO TALK! I JUST WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE! Maybe that's mean, but I'm just beginning to regain my equilibrium, and I really just want to stone in peace and quiet. It's my alone time, damn it!

I eventually got my alone time, but only because I said that I was planning to have some "peace and quiet" and just stone, and Ben gave me this injured "oh". AAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I KNOW he's hurting. I KNOW he needs to talk. But I cannot deal with this right now or I'll lose any sort of balance that I've gained again. Pleh. And I still haven't spoken to wen since I got back. I can't, it makes me too angry. So pooh on both of them.